A Reasoning

I don't write here often, I let pictures and videos have the main focus most of the time but I felt that I wanted to explain myself. Explain the name, the title, the reasoning behind it all. My initials are A. F. and I have always loved the idea of being a force. A force to be reckoned with, someone to not take lightly and not push to the side. To be someone who commands respect and loyalty. Joie de vivre is this idea of an overwhelming joy of being alive and enjoying it. It's among my favorite phrases because it encompasses so well what I want out of my life, I want to just revel in it, this carefree enjoyment of it all. And in my life I would love to combine these two ideas, of being a force but also living this life to it's fullest while enjoying every second of it. It's a difficult idea to sometimes explain when you're a newly twenty year old trying to survive your third year of college. Most of the times it feels like there is no time to enjoy my life, let alone try to be carefree. Professors can make you feel small and peers around you may not give you the respect you feel you should have at times. A year ago at this exact time I didn't feel as though I was reveling in my life. It all seemed dull and grey, slow and neglected but forward a year and I'm starting to see small specks of me understanding my joie de vivre, the enjoyment of my life. I know it's not an idea to implement overnight but slowly it's something I want to be at the top of my mind each day I wake up. It's the idea I strive for when I feel lost.